Are you okay?

Are you okay?

In response to the past few Sundays’ messages, several people have replied, asking, “Are you okay?” I am, but I’m not. No, that’s not right. I’m not, but I am. There’s been another reminder that this life is finite. What I’ve been feeling (mourning?) is not that loss,...
Germination

Germination

I like words, but I also like images. Sometimes images serve me better. This is something I drew a few years ago: It reminds me that while the seed is in the soil, when it looks like nothing is happening, there is growth. I may treasure unfurling my leaves in the warm...
Calm in the Waves

Calm in the Waves

While searching for the right email address to request an extension for my mother’s taxes, I stumbled across my Sunday email from March 15, 2020. I had sent it to my CPA and he had written back, asking permission to forward it to his office. It was a good...
Where do we put her ashes?

Where do we put her ashes?

In the Five Wishes document, when we got to the part about mom’s ‘final resting place,’ I asked if she still wanted to be at Shadow Lake, where she’d lived for 42 years. She shook her head ‘no’ and looked out the window, past the blue ceramic birdbath, to something...
Five Wishes

Five Wishes

On the subject of her eventual and inevitable death, my mom has historically been avoidant or contentious. Other than “I want to be cremated and I don’t want a funeral,” it was hard to find out what my mom would like at the end of her life. But on this visit, her...
Jule Kucera