I have erred on the side of safe. In my life, when I made certain choices. In my posture, when I turned in and down to shelter myself. In my approach to money, when I sought to construct a thick wall between me and the bag-lady future I feared. But I’ve realized that it is not possible to be safe enough. Aside from safety being an illusion, there is no wall I can build that is tall enough and thick enough to protect me.
However, if I take an alternate approach, where I focus on making myself observant and strong and resilient, then I don’t need to fear what’s coming. I can handle it. I don’t need to worry about the nebulous future. I can handle it. I can walk freely in the present and handle what happens as it shows up.
This realization came from the changes I am making in my posture. Before I walk, I complete my pre-walk checklist:
- Tuck shoulders (into back pockets)
- Open heart
- Engage core
- Relax hips
- Release toes
This posture allows me to move freely. It makes me present. Bringing this freedom into my body has brought freedom into my mind. I like moving freely, knowing I can handle what comes up. I can handle it because I always have. Sometimes with more or less grace, but I’m still walking, still moving forward.
Chewing the Cud of Good
A friend gave me tulips in a glass jar. After they had bloomed and were spent, I saved the jar, bought tulip bulbs, and put the bulbs in the refrigerator so they would think it was cold outside. After four months in the fridge, I put the bulbs in the jar and added water. The bulbs came to life!